Y’all, I love me the planet, and I try to be kind to her. Obviously, we cloth diaper. We compost. In general, we try to avoid disposable paper products around the house, to include washing and re-using rags instead of paper towels (but I draw the line at toilet paper… that shit gets disposed of).
But this weekend? We had to do it. We had to break down and buy a GIANT pack of paper plates (made from recycled material and compostable) from Sams Club. I can’t spend my days washing all the dishes, so we’re going to eat off paper plates when possible.
I’m tired of feeling like I’m (in the words of my friend Katherine) “drinking from a fire hose” every day, and this is one step in the direction of getting my life back in order.
We’ve been trying to catch up on laundry since we were all sick for 2 weeks in OCTOBER. I mentioned on Facebook yesterday that I’d like to declare laundry bankruptcy, burn everything and start over, and quite a few suggested I look into a laundry service to help me get back on track. To be honest, I’m heavily considering it.
This is what’s left after doing laundry all weekend. 10 more loads!
In trying to learn what triggers my anxiety, I’m realizing that chaos and disorder paralyzes me, and when I’m paralyzed, I’m anxious and feel out of control. Currently, the things that are the loudest, smelliest, shiniest, most in my face are the ones that get my attention. I have no rhyme or reason to how I approach my tasks and my days. The momAgenda crew would probably be seriously disappointed in me to know I haven’t planned a day out in months. I was just getting tired of writing down “do the dishes, do the laundry, clean the messes.”
So if buying paper plates is one way to help me find my way to the surface of this ocean of chaos that is drowning me, so be it. Strangely, I have no issue using and washing rags instead of paper towels, and the same with cloth diapers. That kind of laundry isn’t what bogs me down. And, I tell myself we have more dishes to do because we’re making efforts to eat at home more, and isn’t that better for the environment anyway? So hopefully my paper plates won’t kill too many baby seals.