Nearing the end of this lightning fast pregnancy and I’m finding it harder and harder to settle on what I want to eat when it comes to “real” food… food that is not a rock.
My special rock, the rock I finally allowed myself to indulge in dunking in ice cold water and sucking on, the rock I sometimes put in my water bottle to make my ice water taste that much better…
Is really the only thing I legitimately CRAVE right now. I’m not even digging the BBQ beef sandwiches anymore. In fact, I’m generally repulsed by meat, which is making the whole low iron thing even that much more of a challenge.
Don’t fret. I am, in fact, eating…food. I am taking my iron supplements, though I’ll admit there are days I just can’t stomach them.
But I just so love my rock. I love it so much that sometimes sucking on it isn’t enough. Sometimes I just crave a little bit more. Sometimes I use a cheap butter knife to break up some of those delicious, grainy, sandy bits. And sometimes I eat those sandy bits.
I mean, I don’t “eat” them, like grind them between my teeth. The non-stop ice crunching has done enough damage to my teeth, I think. I just sort of swallow them. And not a lot. Probably not even a half teaspoon worth, but let me tell you, that little bit is the BEST DAMN THING I EAT ALL DAY. It satisfies my tremendous rock craving.
And I realize from the outside looking in this is all very concerning. I realize this is certifiably CRAZY to many of you. And yet, to me, at this moment, it makes perfect sense. It’s not odd to me at all to find the grout section at Home Depot mouth watering. It’s not weird to me to put a rock in my water bottle because it makes my water taste more… mineral-y. It’s not even strange to indulge in a little bit of sandy, ground rock goodness.
This baby is due to exit soon, and I really, really hope she takes this craving for rocks with her. I hope I come home from the hospital, take one look at this rock, and want to hurl at the thought of ever wanting to eat it.
I’m 39 weeks pregnant… and I don’t know how much longer this rock is going to hold out.