My mother raised three children to adulthood, my mother kept all three of us alive, my mother is a more than capable caregiver…. *deep breath.*
I just handed Kendall off to my mom, gave her complete responsibility for him for the next week. I am CHILD FREE (with the exception of the one that takes up the space in my uterus and keeps kicking me in the bladder) for the next WEEK.
I should be rejoicing, cartwheeling, partying it up, watching a Teen Mom marathon and eating junkfood without having to hide.
I should not be fighting off mommy visions of my 2 year old running off into streets, climbing under cars, getting into trouble, harming himself. I should not be fighting off this anxiety. This is completely unfounded. My mother is going to be just fine taking care of him… right?
It’s just, he’s SO active, and he has a tendency to not listen, and he wears *me* out, and I’m used to him. I’ve been gearing up for the marathon that is toddlerhood for the last 2 years. I have the endurance built up.
AND I’m a paranoid, first-time parent who might have a bit of a control issue. There’s that, too. My helicopter tendencies might be making me twitch just a little, I will admit.
She’s watched him before overnight. Once when we planned to run the marathon in San Antonio last year but wound up with a killer case of food poisoning instead, and once when we went to Sonoma for 4 nights. Each of those times, though, we were doing something, going places, pre-occupied… or vomiting our neurosystems out. We weren’t at home without him. We weren’t just here... living life… like we did before he was born.
So we have a week to spend with each other, to give a little more attention to the dogs. to work on getting some house projects done, and to maybe just go out a few times. We don’t have to worry about bathtime or bedtime tonight. I can sleep in tomorrow as long as I want. I can just pick up and go to the store whenever I feel like it.
I know it’s going to be an awesome “staycation,” and I know Kendall is going to have a BLAST on his vacation away from us out in the country. And my mom? She’s going to be great… but I have a feeling she’s going to be the one in need of a little relaxation come next Sunday night.
Have you ever sent your kid(s) away just so you could spend some time doing nothing (or a lot) around the house? What did you do with your time?